Perhaps.

Perhaps i should never give my 100% into it yet. Perhaps i should learn to be independable and not to rely on anyone even that you, the one i thought is the closest to me. Perhaps i should control my emotions well, i don't want to always cry in front of people especially you. Perhaps i should always put up a strong front because i don't want to let you know that i am so damn weak. Perhaps i should not tell you how much i love you and i can't even think of the idea that you will leave me one day. Perhaps i should just keep everything to myself, even though you always want us to be honest to each other. Perhaps i am just to afraid of being alone that's why i need your attention every second.

PS. Happy fifth month